Sunday, June 8, 2008

Dumpling festival.....

Dumpling festival...for most of the child they only remember how nice the taste of BA ZHANG especially home make.Haiz....actually i like tis festival the most except than CNY(angpao angpao all we love!)during i am still a kid becos i knw ah ma sure will make lots lots of BA ZHANG,cannot call BA ZHANG too because ah ma not only prepare BA ZHANG but also others various. Before the festival come, ah ma will be very busy,need to wake up very early,even before the sunrise(becos that time my family super poor,no car)to take bus to the market to buy all the ingredient and the only person who can become her maid is my cousin(i still remember i am very jealous tht time why ah ma jus bring cousin instead of me or why dun bring to together)o help her carry her stuff. Then ah ma sure will bought my favourite DRY LONGGAN for me everytimes she back(cos i will complain cousin got KEROPO or COLA ah ma bias wat wat to her purporsely make her cant breath to achieve my objective). That time i extremely hope i can grow up fast in order to go market with ah ma.Because i am still small on that time,i cant remember the recipe and the only thing i can do is help ah ma pack it(even the shape super ugly and all my cousins refuse to eat the ZHANG packed by me and forced me to eat all the ZHANG i packed myself!)i always complain to ah ma why jus teach oh gak(cousin name) how to make ZHANG,i also wan to learn!!BIAS BIAS!!ah ma sure will comfort me and promise will teach me when i grow bigger(till today i am big enuff ah ma not yet teach me...not yet..because no chance to..)...hahah tat time i really hate why don i can born earlier.During the festival, sure a lot relatives come my house cos every1 also knw ah ma sure will make ZHANG and will receive some. That time i damn damn hate the down stair mini market shop owner!!every year only this time this moment he will come visit ah ma somemore super greedy always take lots ZHANG away!Haiz...among so many different kind of ZHANG,i like ah ma BA ZHANG the most..the taste..its the taste of heaven..i always purposely ask ah ma make some special BA ZHANG(inside ah ma added extra ingredient wakaka!)and i packed different shape so that my evil cousins wont eat somemore added my name there~extreme big BA ZHANG!!wakaka....but all of all these only leave memories now...ah ma old d, i still remember the last time she make ZHANG is during my secondary sch peralihan..somemore she said she lazy but i requested it.now even how many ZHANG i tried from frens or bought it outside, still losing that kind of feel, how to describe le...the feels of heaven....the feels of ah ma....the feels of my childhood memories.Last time i went back sarawak(latest) ah ma cant even remember who am i, she seems weaker than previous...got 1 thing i very very mind till now and even rest of my life(it happen last year) ah ma always eat breakfast with me(cos no ppl wan to bring her out becos inconvenient of her legs) and she like the dim sum very much...everytime i go back sure bring her to eat breakfast, 1 day dim sum then another TAUFU CHAP(ah ma cant eat oily foods) then like that keep repeating. she will be very happy see i go back home cos she knw i gonna bring her to breakfast(everyday my mum tapao the same breakfast to her..WANTAN)every morning 7.00 sharp she will sit there and wait me to bring her out.1 day...i overselpt!!!i setted alarm!!i swear!but when i woke up its 11.30!!(i always go out till mid nite 2 or 3 o'clock only back,that night i drunk..)i rushed down stair and saw ah ma stil sitting there, i thought she should have eaten her lunch then watching tv there but my mum told me she have been waiting me there from 7.00 and my mum see i still sleeping tapaoed breakfast to her but she refused to eat even called her for lunch but ah ma repied:WAIT FOR AH SUI!!that time...i really hate myself,first time i so so fucking hate myself!!Since that day, i didnt sleep anymore at night(i knw i MAY cant wake up) wait till 7.00 bring ah ma go eat then back at 9.00 only sleep then till afternoon,everyday same...WHEN I AM STILL SMALL I HOPE I CAN GROW UP FAST, BUT WHEN I AM GROWED...I ONLY REALISED AH MA ALSO OLD ALREADY...Dumpling festival....i jealous who still got chance to eat ah ma dumpling...i jealous who big enuff to go market with ah ma....i jealous who big enuff to bring ah ma for a simple meal...i jealous who can afford to the cost to take care ah ma....i jealous who still got ah ma...树欲静而风不止,子欲养而亲不待....my pain forever.....